Thursday, January 29, 2015

escape to solitude






i walk the back woods barefoot thinking i would *escape

but then i realize all around me knows i’m here

when i breathe ,the air comes without announcement

with every step the ground comes up to meet me
 
when i reach up the leaves of trees touch my finger tips

if i look up at the sky with its white crinoline skirt it stares back

whistle and i’m joined by the cardinal, sparrow and bluebird

sing and the howl of the wolf is inspired knowing of my presence

trying not to think but memories entangle me in reflections

my beating heart calls out to those entwined with mine

this soul carries a torch for those that have left me

i guess escaping is not easy, only solitude



* connotes selfless; Tao

 


Wednesday, January 28, 2015

a cheer to joy


in these days of disquiet
i’d walk barefoot on jagged stones
to distract from pain throbbing
in my heart and in my head,
the tumult

if i could i’d sing a song
with words for all to hear
of how things could be better,
if only we would try

sing of how tender the touch of a child
being nurtured on mother’s breast or
a hand upon the shoulder of a son
by a father’s caress

sing of the gentleness of breath when
love comes and kisses your cheek
and feeling soft warm skin
pressed against your chin

i would dance so that you’d turn
your sight away from the sadness
you’ve witnessed and raise a glass
of wine to cheer of joys that
still can be

for if i don’t sing and dance, i
too will be thrown into a den
of distraught and disquiet and
all would  wallow in the mire
 

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

i care


why’d you cry today
was it because of the pain
that comes with love
 
 
are your children healthy
your partner, also
how are you, my friend
will you survive the day
 
 
i ask because i care
we’ve gone days we
have not spoken, written
or called exchanging our
life's wares
 
 
my efforts will be more
from now on to be there for you
if you wish to cry, my shoulder
will be comfort with a warm embrace
 
 
i know i can’t fix your world
nor you mine but we can assuage
the pain if we’re there for each other
showing that we care
 
 
you know it is said
when the burden is heavy
if it is shared the weight
will be lessen and can be
carried till its end
 
 
so call me and i will you
let’s talk and tell each other
about those burdensome things
so that our days will come to be
bountiful by knowing someone cares

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

spot of wisdom, maybe


once again i open my eyes waging a battle
with the enticement of slumber where the
cradle of my bed with which i shared a moment
of sweet oblivion whispers asking me…
why denounce our comfort, wait awhile to awake

but then the day calls me, also, with its delight
and its mornings tinge of a soft grey
and it says to me…i shall feed you with verve
from my sun’s energy and provide you with
my day’s script for without this your night
would not be filled with dreams

and so, awake, i ponder the day’s calling
to be one of tender struggles, of smiles
and laughter yet also bringing forth pangs
with tears of seeing plight but knowing
i shall consume some wisdom of life and at
it’s end i shall once again introduce the day
to night and reminding them… that in life
there is darkness and there is light

 

Thursday, January 15, 2015

now softly i step


my steps are becoming softer
still committed on my path
my voice seemingly more subdued
i guess that comes when other voices
are heard from farther and further away

small joys are in pieces and bits of visuals
that in my autumn years of life seem to be
so ever present and with a keenness, now,  
is my seeing of the ubiquitous colors, their
contrasts and symbiosis of the day’s early light

sometimes i lay coddling my pillow
with a feeling of not wanting to rise
to the seductive sprinkle of dawn
or the enticing splash of the sun and day
but only wish to lie here in the slumber
of the ritual called sleep and play in
the other reality of dreams

but then i remember the constant conflict
i battle within of my days journey to read
and to write in lieu of time spent walking
underneath the ethereal sculptures of
greys and whites that paint the sky
and the breezes that blow back the hair
on my two little family members that walk
with me in the light of day and under the stars of night

i praise these moments, these hours and days
of sight and sound, of taste and touch, of tears
when needed both of soulful stress and
heartfelt joy and the juxtaposed places where
love is found in the forest of nature
and the hearts of those that surround me
but most of all when with the one that has held me
for better or for worse until my soul does depart



 

Saturday, January 3, 2015

a wish

what i behold is not what you behold
the aesthetics of my vision are shaped
by my heart, my mind, my experience,
my choice and yours is of the like, but
yours is yours

i cry for the soul that suffers
whose mouth has not chewed food
for so long, whose taste has not had
the pleasure of its liking, and one whose
skin has not felt the warmth of cotton

i must on occasion allow myself to discard
the seemingly unmitigating anguish within
like when witness to a human having passed away
alone in an uncaring and lonely street as
his only friend, a canine, laying by his side,
growling at anyone's approach. undying friendship

i wish sometimes to be blind to all this,
that my heart and soul could not feel this anymore
i wish that my disdain and anger for this
could be felt by the same broken heart, by more

that those who still have but a caring heart
a human kindness, not beset by self imparted
ideology, religiosity or bigotry, would rise and act
against the presence of this inhumanity

i say now in word, stated maybe unjustly by the
limitations of my limited abilities with words,
that when, as destiny will determine when my
soul shall depart, it will be with love in my heart
for all who shared my vision

like the lonely soul i witnessed in the street who’s soul
seemingly departed alone, i share with him similar
moments where in life some family and friends and passing
random acquaintances feigned affection.

when time comes i shall lay my body down somewhere
devoid of all possessions, worldly anchors, but only
with my canine friend by my side and if lucky,
my human love holding my hand

 


Thursday, January 1, 2015

a good beginning


i wish to enter into thy warmth of nest
huddle closely chest to chest
if thou let me kiss thy neck
entice the lust in both of us without rest

whisper to me if this be of your liking
soft and gentle with my touch
onto the small of thy back 
and let my kisses do as much

before all this, if i may serenade thee
with a song and words i’ve gathered
having saved them for much too long
for just the right moment when together alone

we have walked hand in hand
from dusk till sunrise many times
sometimes sharing sweet words
listening to the quiet and silence in
the nudge of dawn

we have played in waters running
through tall mountains when the sky
has cried upon its tapestry like
ornamental strands streaming
down their face

we have traversed trails in forested plains
to escape the noise of man’s rumbles
to the disdain of Mother Nature’s ears
for the careless waste of years and years

so when we come together tonight
let us wash away the grime of day
as we sit in a tub of water warmed
i sponge you and you me then caressing
as our bodies to each other, belong

after, we shall lie together naked
only the eyes of the moon upon us
and we’ll kiss ourselves to sleep
until the wake of morning to begin
another day of love at our feet

 

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

feliz año nuevo


many a daylight reveries and night time dreams
have passed, ruminations and interpretations
of where reality resides. what for are my peripatetic
dispersings in my awakenings but only to depose them
onto sleepless nights of confusion

the god of gods, the maker of my being, provides me
with the will of choice or has he ?
is my trail paved with palatable terrace stones
so that my every step directs me toward a
predetermined path and all of my contorted and
juxtaposed moments are of a duped puppet on strings?

has the residence of my being in this universe of
dark and light, of cold and warm, of noise
and silence, my tears having been heartless
only to the dysfunction of metabolic incarnations
and my sensorial portrayals having been but
valences, less than benevolent and without cause?
 
do my queries even purport anything in the
discourse of existence where if there is
no god of gods, no divine intention or intervention
to give all this some value or worth that we dupes
believe to be the ‘good’?

to this, though, i shall not deviate from my direction,
to give with appreciation of myself even if impoverished
with misgivings to thoughts of godlessness, 
these curious interpreted thoughts of my doing.
for i having noticed smiles of comfort, a joy
and warmth of being, to this i shall go on until
the end. i wish to be integral and heartfelt of all this
for this is what my new year will bring

Sunday, December 28, 2014

give of yourself



a veil of tears fall gently
down my face as i ponder
who, for what, i am
they fall onto an open hand
trying to understand why they’re shed
and i sooth the pain by saying…yes i do,
thy heart laments in the sorrow of others

…feeling the burdens of hunger
the pangs of strife and loneliness
knowing life’s music is not heard
when the struggle is deafening

a body left unclothed, sheltered from the cold,
hunger pangs go unfed of mother and child,
an uncaring hand that has so much is
blinded by perceived riches of self indulgence

i catch the tears upon my open hand
holding my soul, my heart tight, walking,
day and night trying to wipe away tears
on faces, share food with child and mother

for when the human heart is promised yet it
becomes complacent, not a smile or touch,
many are scorned thinking no one cares
for even in the presence of others
an emptiness resides within

Saturday, December 27, 2014

dark or light


dark , dark ~ black

        surrounds

                  i let it embrace me

                       in this empty space the absence of color
 
             a void without light

                         no longer with fear

portentous disappears

                  thoughts scramble, jumbled

                             breath is shallow, quiet

                                          heart beat slow
    tears appear and flow

                          days bygones

         saddened memories

                  loves lost to the absence of life

                           and so i sit here  

                                 wondering why the past came so quickly

           soon my tomorrows                          will disappear
 
                              is there light

or dark dark
                                        where i will be ?

Saturday, December 20, 2014

do you see what i see


while my eyes are closed but cannot sleep
tell me of what your eyes behold
do they see the azure of a sky who shares
its space with those who wish to fly like
the miracle of the mariposa that flutters with glee
where once tethered earth bound and now
it flies free

do your eyes avail themselves to the light
of a yellow gold sun that hovers high
giving nourishment to the plants and trees,
the glistening of the springs that run through
valleys at the feet of grandiose mountains
as the eagles perch on the edges of their peaks

tell me does your heart beat with the rhythm
of life’s drum that is in sync with the wind
that has traveled above the oceans waves
and through the caves and caverns of antiquity
carrying whispers of the past of how love prevailed
over the blood of war otherwise our souls today
would not be sharing the tales of yore
 

do your eyes perceive as mine do even though
they are closed trying to gather dreams of where
two lovers dance as in stories of Brothers Grimm,
foretelling of how tomorrow will bring a calm and peace
unlike what the lecherous speak or the haters reap
but of joy and laughter where our souls shall ever after
be set free like the transcendent miracle of mariposa’s wings

Thursday, December 18, 2014

shelter from the storm


as the trees were bending
the wind was swirling, gusting,
a darkness, an ominous setting i
as a storm was evident

there i sat looking out my window
wondering whether my fear was
justified and how to take shelter
not realizing, forgetting that i was
not alone in this fear

i fear the noise, the banging
of window shutters, the gray then
the dark covering all where but
moments before had been clear and
discernible, seemingly to be forever present

the lilies lavender peddles and rosette
bulbs that stood before me and had
been giving pleasure to mine eyes
now had been blown off only a
denuded stem stood

calm and peaceful stillness besets
the canvass with gentle beauty
but when life’s storm rumbles through
what was once beauty before mine eyes
now only tattered resemblances remain

i think to myself, could I have covered
the lily and rose with shelter if i were not
enthralled in fear, concerned for myself
without consideration of other life
that surrounds my every moment

the storm shall pass and i will be left
with only that which i sheltered then
i realized that if all was taken from me
while distracted by my personal fear,
i would be alone. life can be a storm     

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

lore of love and hope


where before we’d read about in
the bibles’ prophesies or the myths in writ
of old where fires would rage and burn houses
down when once they were homes
all because love no longer ruled and
the ire and the daggers of lust for power
purchased by a currency of jealousy and
judgment railed and by so, the killing of their
children, wantonly, supplanting of their dreams
and futures as destined by the dictates
of a hand clenched and filled of hate

these are readings no longer or in writ
but if one walks out their door they will see
the houses burning as children align
the streets marching in bloodied faces,
torn and frayed shirts from battles fought
with the soldiers armed by the pockets of
institutions from grandfathers whose edifices
were built to house their hoarded truths
and gold, gathered on the backs of native
peoples and those enslaved to maintain the
trophies, selfishly stored, never to be shared
by anyone other than their own

will the souls of righteousness prevail and
take back the land, filling the hands of time with
a writ of history telling of how the children fought
for the rights of all and the good that breathed
nourishment once again into the souls, leading them
to refresh the air, the seas, the land of trees,
leaving myths for those in future reads of how
once upon a time; the feet that roamed this earth
had carelessly assailed its fruits and almost left
a paradisiacal gift in mire for the children of the
future never to behold or stories never to be told ?     

Thursday, December 11, 2014

human rights


was but a child of eight
walking on a street so foreign
in a country so strange
felt all alone

a stranger strikes me in my stomach
expels all breath inside me
he runs away and yells…
‘go back home where you belong’

incessant tears cascade my face,
running running not stopping until at my front door
mamasita comes up to me…’que paso mijo’?
i asked..’what’s wrong with me, mama’?

she sits me down with her hand
tears are wiped from my face
gives me a tortilla with butter, sugar
sprinkles, looks at me and says
‘nene, te falta nada, eres un angel’
(nothing is wrong with you, my angel)

hate, I’ve learned, arises for different reasons;
because of differences, because of fears,
insecurities gathered through the years
are groomed by ignorance, stupidity is the
attire of choice.

to this day my stomach aches not from
a strangers hand but from the strain
of hatred running through people’s veins
that cause human rights violations on the
disenfranchised via prejudice, bigotry , racism
with insidiousness for oligarchic gains

 

[ for Poets United Midweek Motif ~ Human Rights

 

 

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

evolving world

there’s coolness in quiet
a warmth in silence
feeling the presence
of life’s essence

as violins play
and song birds sing
running rivers dream
of an oceans roar

the blooms of Spring
then a sSmmer breaze
array of colors in the Fall
a freeze in Winter’s tease

through it all we've come
the pains and sorrows
but also tears of joy
to welcome our tomorrows

let there be light
our creator said
rest your head
upon my bed

so when the star
shines bright at night
reminds us that
after dark there’s light



 *James Write leaves us with a darkness in these two poems. thought i'd give a little light after the dark
 

Saturday, December 6, 2014

entwined


i shall wander into your ponderings,
lose myself in you no longer feeling me,
will see how you see me and as your heart
beats in rhythm of your breath, I will feel
your pain and cry your tears

i will do this and
 
your fears will be mine,
your desires with mine entwine
and as i kiss your cheek
hold the warm of your hand
love will be different as i
drink from the cup of empathy

veil of gray upon us


the day that once covered me in light
now is misty and gray
in the light i’d run like the wind blows free
sometimes as a breeze and sometimes as a
gust so strong that would shake even the
sturdiest of trees

in the light i’d sing and jump with delight
roll around uncaring of twigs and stones
the grass being healthy and strong
all around me would stop to smile and stare
the blue jay and robin would, upon a limb,
perch to see what brings about this fair
the chipmunk and the squirrel would
stop their scurry and sit up on haunches
tiny front feet gathered at their chest

but as the mist and gray fell like a veil
upon the lights rays t’was not only i
who stopped playing but all around me
became so solemn, no longer wishing
to play and so the joy, the delight
ceased and light became gray

hoping the light to shine through, someday soon
and the world will gather this veil of gray of our own
creation, with the same hand, crumble and throw it away
the heart will recover, feel the grass under dancing feet,
rolling about and running in the swirling wind
the chipmunk and squirrel will once again
scurry about, the blue jay and robin will feel
the wind underneath their wings

fly away free birds let not the gray make your day
and realize that all is not 'black and white'
we’re in this together